Paths of the mirror

And above all else, to look with innocence. As if nothing was happening, which is true.

But you, I want to look at you until your face escapes from my fear like a bird from the sharp
edge of the night.

Like a girl made of pink chalk on a very old wall that is suddenly washed away by the rain.

Like when a flower blooms and reveals the heart that isn’t there.

Every gesture of my body and my voice to make myself into the offering,
the bouquet that is abandoned by
the wind on the porch.

Cover the memory of your face with the mask of who you will be and scare the girl you once were.

The night of us both scattered with the fog. It’s the season of cold foods.

And the thirst, my memory is of the thirst, me underneath, at the bottom, in the hole,
I drank, I remember.

To fall like a wounded animal in a place that was meant to be for revelations.

As if it meant nothing. No thing. Mouth zipped. Eyelids sewn. I forgot.
Inside, the wind. Everything closed and the wind inside.

Under the black sun of the silence the words burned slowly.

But the silence is true. That’s why I write. I’m alone and I write. No, I’m not alone.
There’s somebody here shivering.

Even if I say sun and moon and star I’m talking about things that happen to me. And what did I wish for? I wished for a perfect silence.
That’s why I speak.

The night is shaped like a wolf’s scream.

Delight of losing one-self in the presaged image. I rose from my corpse, I went looking for who I am.
Migrant of myself, I’ve gone towards the one who sleeps in a country of wind.

My endless falling into my endless falling where nobody waited for me –because when I saw who was waiting for me I saw no one but myself.

Something was falling in the silence. My last word was “I” but I was talking about the luminiscent dawn.

Yellow flowers constellate a circle of blue earth. The water trembles full of wind.

The blinding of day, yellow birds in the morning. A hand untangles the darkness, a hand drags
the hair of a drowned woman that never stops going through the mirror. To return to the memory of the body,
I have to return to my mourning bones, I have to understand what my voice is saying.

Alejandra Pizarnik (Argentina, 1936-1972)

Star Wars: Space is for white women


Image: the “Star Wars” banner over a starry background, with the white lettering replaced by the words “space is for white women”.

Two weeks ago I had the audicity of making a post on Tumblr saying that maybe, after five nearly identical white female leads across the span of four decades, we don’t need any more white women in the Star Wars franchise.

Image: a screencap from tumblr, of a post that reads

Image: a screencap from tumblr, of a post that reads “What the Star Wars franchise needs: Women of Color, Gay/Bi women, Disabled women, Trans women, Fat women. What the Star Wars franchise doesn’t need: Any more thin, abled, cishet white women”

Though, of course, most people actually agreed, because –as intelligent consumers of media– most of us have come to realize that the white female lead is no longer revolutionary (read: here, here, here, here), most doesn’t mean all.

…we only ever got 3, fam, in the entire eight movies

There are four in the entire franchise. Yes, it does need more.

I’m sure there were more obnoxious comments like these, but I blocked most of the commentators due to pure annoyance. Yet, because I’m a petty bitch, I decided to make this list. These are… all the women in the Star Wars movies!

Image: Emilia Clarke, Felicity Jones, Daisy Ridley, Carrie Fisher and Natalie Portman.

Image: Emilia Clarke, Felicity Jones, Daisy Ridley, Carrie Fisher and Natalie Portman.

Reblog on Tumblr // Retweet this

White women

Episode I

  • Natalie Portman – Queen Padmé Amidala
  • Pernilla August – Shmi Skywalker
  • Celia Imrie – Fighter Pilot Bravo 5
  • Liz Wilson – Eirtaé
  • Candice Orwell – Yané
  • Sofia Coppola – Saché
  • Keira Knightley – Sabé
  • Margaret Towner – Jira
  • Katie Lucas – Amee
  • Megan Udall – Melee
  • Michelle Taylor – Yarael Poof (costume)
  • Michaela Cottrell* – Even Piell (costume)
  • Lindsay Duncan – TC-14 (voice)
  • Amanda Lucas – Tey How (voice)
  • Sacha Alexander – Graf Zapalo
  • Trisha Biggar – Orn Free Taa’s Aide
  • Michonne Bourriague – Aurra Sing
  • Zsuzsanna Cseh – Pod Race Spectator
  • Catherine Ernster – Naboo Civilian
  • Sally Hawkins – Villager
  • Sandi Finlay – Sly Moore

Episode II

  • Natalie Portman – Queen Padmé Amidala
  • Pernilla August – Shmi Skywalker
  • Leeanna Walsman – Zam Wesell
  • Rose Byrne – Dormé
  • Bonnie Piesse – Beru
  • Alethea McGrath – Madame Jocasta Nu
  • Susie Porter – Hermione Bagwa / WA-7
  • Michaela Cottrell – Even Piell (costume) – archive footage
  • Amy Allen – Aayla Secura
  • Kristen Bronson – Waitress
  • Natalie Danks-Smith – Hand Maiden
  • Eliana Dona – Kell Borean
  • Nicole Fantl – Senator Lexi Dio
  • Emma Howard – Sar Labooda
  • Fiona Johnson – Hayde Gofai
  • Sara Elizabeth Joyce – Dex’s Diner Bounty Hunter
  • Gillian Libbert – Lillea Bringbit
  • Amanda Lucas – Adnama
  • Katie Lucas – Lunae Minx
  • Sandi Finlay – Sly Moore

Episode III

  • Natalie Portman – Queen Padmé Amidala
  • Amanda Lucas – Terr Taneel
  • Bonnie Piesse – Beru Lars
  • Amy Allen – Aayla Secura
  • Trisha Noble – Jobal Naberrie
  • Claudia Karvan – Sola Naberrie
  • Keira Wingate – Ryoo Naberrie
  • Hayley Mooy – Pooja Naberrie
  • Sandi Finlay – Sly Moore
  • Katie Lucas – Chi Eekway
  • Genevieve O’Reilly – Mon Mothma
  • Kristy Wright – Moteé
  • Olivia McCallum – Bene
  • Dominique Chionchio – Jedi Knight
  • Eliana Dona – Hand Maiden
  • Nina Fallon – Stass Allie
  • Janet Lewin – Opera House Patron
  • Denise Ream – Opera House Patron
  • Lisa Shaunessy – Senator
  • Suzie Steen – Hand Maiden 3
  • Jacqui Louez Schoorl – Senator

Episode IV

  • Carrie Fisher – Princess Leia Organa
  • Shelagh Fraser – Aunt Beru
  • Gilda Cohen – Cantina Patron
  • Maria De Aragon – Greedo (costume)
  • Sadie Eden – Garindan (costume)
  • Christine Hewett – Brea Tonnika
  • Annette Jones – Mosep (costume)
  • Linda Jones – Chall Bekan (costume)
  • Melissa Kurtz – Jawa (costume)
  • Tiffany L. Kurtz – Jawa (costume)
  • Mandy Morton – Swilla Corey
  • Angela Staines – Senni Tonnika
  • Diana Sadley Way – Thuku (costume)

Episode V

  • Carrie Fisher – Princess Leia Organa
  • Marjorie Eaton – Emperor
  • Stephanie English – Hoth Rebel Technician
  • Susie Hudson – Bespin Woman
  • Tiffany L. Kurtz – Extra
  • Cathy Munroe – Zuckuss (costume)
  • Marolyn Turk – Hoth Rebel

Episode VI

  • Carrie Fisher – Princess Leia Organa
  • Annie Arbogast – Sy Snootles
  • Claire Davenport – Dancer
  • Jane Busby – Chief Chirpa (costume)
  • Celia Fushille-Burke – Jedi Rocks Dancer (face-paint) – special edition
  • Jennifer Jaffe – Jedi Rocks Dancer (face-paint) – special edition
  • Tina Simmons – Rebel Technician
  • Amanda Noar – Jess
  • Linda Bowley, Debbie Lee Carrington, Maureen Charlton, Sarah Bennett, Pamela Betts, Patty Bell, Eileen Baker, Margo Apostolos, Debbie Dixon, Lydia Green, Pam Grizz, Karen Lay, Nancy Maclean, Carole Morris, Stacie Nichols, Barbara O’Laughlin, April Perkins, Carol Read, Diana Reynolds and Linda Spriggs – Ewoks (costume)

Episode VII

  • Carrie Fisher – General Leia Organa
  • Daisy Ridley – Rey
  • Gwendoline Christie – Captain Phasma
  • Cailey Fleming – Young Rey
  • Anna Brewster – Bazine Netal
  • Harriet Walter – Dr. Kalonia
  • Francesca Longrigg – Bar Patron
  • Billie Lourd – Lieutenant Connix
  • Leanne Best – Min Sakul
  • Claudia Sermbezis – Lema Eelyak
  • Kate Fleetwood – First Order Officer
  • Samantha Alleyne – First Order Stormtrooper
  • Verona Blue – Resistance PA Announcer (voice)
  • Nathalie Cuzner – PZ-4CO (costume)
  • Clare Glass – Friend of Big Toad
  • Marina Hayter – Bar Worker
  • Stephanie Silva – ME-8D9 (costume)
  • Sandy Kate Slade – Lady Astronaut
  • Catherine Taber – Hangar Officer
  • Kelsey White – Resistance Fighter

Rogue One

  • Felicity Jones – Jyn Erso
  • Genevieve O’Reilly – Mon Mothma
  • Ingvild Deila – Princess Leia
  • Valene Kane – Lyra Erso
  • Beau Gadsdon – Young Jyn
  • Dolly Gadsdon – Younger Jyn
  • Geraldine James – Blue Three

Han Solo

  • Emilia Clarke – Unnamed female lead

Women of color

Episode I

  • Gin Clarke – Adi Gallia (Black)
  • Dipika O’Neill Joti – Depa Billaba (Indian)

Episode II

  • Ayesha Dharker (Indian) – Queen Jamillia
  • Rena Owen (Maori) – Taun We (voice)
  • Gin Clarke (Black) – Adi Gallia – archive footage
  • Dipika O’Neill Joti (Indian) – Depa Billaba – archive footage
  • Nalini Krishan (Pasifika) – Barriss Offee (face-paint)
  • Mary Oyaya (Black) – Jedi Knight Luminara Unduli (face-paint)

Episode III

  • Keisha Castle-Hughes (Maori) – Queen of Naboo
  • Rebecca Jackson Mendoza (Filipina) – Queen of Alderaan
  • Rena Owen (Maori)- Nee Alavar
  • Caroline de Souza Correa (Brazilian) – Bail Organa’s Aide #1
  • Chantal Freer (?) – Elle – scene deleted
  • Bai Ling  (Chinese) – Senator Bana Breemu

Episode VI

  • Femi Taylor (Black) – Oola (face-paint)
  • Mercedes Ngoh (Black) – Jedi Rocks Dancer (face-paint) – special edition

Episode VII

  • Lupita Nyong’o (Black) – Maz Kanata (CGI)
  • Maisie Richardson-Sellers (Black) – Korr Sella
  • Crystal Clarke (Black) – Ensign Goode
  • Philicia Saunders (Black) – Tabala Zo
  • Jessica Henwick (Singaporean-Chinese) – Jess Testor/Pava
  • Hannah John-Kamen (Black) – First Order Officer
  • Arti Shah (Black) – Maz Motion Capture Double (costume)
  • Christina Chong (Chinese) – Unnamed – scene deleted
  • Karen Huie (Japanese) – Niima Scavenger (voice)

Rogue One

  • Shina Shihoko Nagai (Japanese) – Mother of a Lost Child
  • Boriana Williams (Undetermined) – Villager
  • Sharon Duncan-Brewster (Black) – Senator Tynnra Pamlo


Episode I

  • Karol Cristina da Silva – Rabé
    (Brazilian, either white, or white passing)

Episode II

  • Veronica Segura – Cordé
    (Mexican, either white, or white passing)

Episode VI

  • Margarita Fernández – Ewok (costume)
    (no information or pictures, her name suggests she could be Latina/Filipina)

Episode VII

  • Gloria Garcia – Jakku Defender
    (no information about her, name suggests she could be Latina/Filipina but, if she is, she’s really white-passing)

Rogue One

Dolly Jagdeo – Rebel Engineer
(no information or pictures, her last-name suggests she could be non-white)


The bold are the leading or main characters or, in the case of Shmi and Mon Mothma, the other female characters with most screen-time.

Non-Human characters will be divided as costume, CGI, face-paint or voice. Characters listed as “archive footage” are those whose actors didn’t actually act in the movie, the ones listed as “special edition” didn’t appear in theaters, and the ones listed under “deleted scene” didn’t make it to the final cut.

The “Undetermined” section is for actresses whose ethnicity I couldn’t find or guess, but that I don’t feel comfortable listing as white due to lack of information.

The source for this post is IMBD.

*Michaela Cottrell is an actress with Dwarfism and, as far as I could find, the only actress in the franchise who isn’t able-bodied.

“Being Latinx Is Not About Color”… It’s About Being Latinx


The header of the article “Being Latinx Is Not About Color” in The Mary Sue.

The folx over at @latinxgeeks wrote a short but very concise reply to this article already, and one would think that @desiree-rodriguez’s amazing article for The Nerds Of Color would have cleared any doubts regarding this issue, but it seems that, with this bullshit “article” that @TheMarySue published yesterday, la montaña de mierda won’t stop growing. So, here I come, your favorite Angry Latina Stereotype™, looking for a fight.

Before I start, I want to say this: The Mary Sue has had a long history of being the most White Feminist™ Geeky media, but they usually keep their racism just lowkey enough that most people might miss it. I think the publishing of this article justifying a blatant act of whitewashing should be the final nail on the coffin, and convince y’all to cancel your subscriptions to this publication.

Instead, consider collaborating to Desiree Rodriguez’s Patreon, subscribing to Geeks of Color or Black Nerd Problems, or using your time and money to support and uplift any of the latinxs of color in fandom who are doing great things for our nerdy community. Now…

I’m gonna address Teresa, from The Mary Sue, who decided to write this giant pile of shit and publish it. Dear Teresa, from one biracial Latina to another: ¿Qué te pasa?

I’ll admit that, when I realized she wasn’t a “homegirl,” I was a little disappointed. It’s always nice when professionals with whom you have ethnicity in common are out there doing their thing! Especially when there are so few in comparison to other groups. But, as disappointed as I was about that, I wasn’t upset.

Oh, Teresa, you weren’t upset! That’s so great, I’m so glad that your particular feelings weren’t hurt by the knowledge that, once more, a role that was meant for or advertised as latinx was instead played by a white non-latinx actor. I’m so happy that you didn’t experience the feeling of disappointment, of being robbed, of being cheated that washed over so many fans of color. The fact that you, the sole spokesperson for all latinxs of color everywhere, approve of this casting truly solves anti-latinx racism worldwide.

Because the character of Maggie Sawyer is still Latina.

No, she is not.

That’s how she’s being played and written and advertised. They took a character that was originally white and blonde in the comics, gave the role to a brown woman with dark hair and said “We are making the conscious decision to have this character be a woman of color now”. That’s huge.

She cannot be a woman of color because she is played by a white woman. She cannot be latina because she is not played by a latina. That’s like saying that Scarlett Johansson is representation for Japanese women and that Tilda Swinton is representation for Tibetan people. Was Robert Downey Jr’s super realist blackface representation for Black people? That’s what I thought.

I said this before and I will say it again now, “Maggie is canonically white in the comics, and they could have just left her that way. But they chose to explicitly change her into a brown latina, and then went and cast a white non-latina for the role.” Desiree Rodriguez, who is infinitely smarter, more educated and, most of all, way more gracious than I am, and wouldn’t step so low as to respond to this flaming fire of an “article”, also said:

“Maggie Sawyer doesn’t represent what being Latina means, or the struggles many Latinas face in America. When Maggie told Alex she struggled being both non-white and queer, it feels like a trick. Lima is able to adopt the identity for various roles but does not have to live with the reality of being Latina in America. Or the struggle of being a Latina actress in Hollywood.”

Continue reading

I’m quitting Femslash Fandom

Reblog on Tumblr

When Clarke kissed Lexa in The 100, thousands of people rushed to binge-watch the show in order to catch up with the last couple episodes of the second season.
Though the show had never gotten the deserved recognition for its Filipino male lead nor any kind of criticism for the blatant racism in it, suddenly a horde of white fans was rushing to hype it’s “amazing” sapphic representation before The Debacle or to criticize its biphobia/lesbophobia after it all went to shit.

When the first rumors of Alex coming out in season 2 of Supergirl started circulating, again, a myriad of fans rushed to marathon season one so they could catch up in time for the return of the show, and were quick to start stanning Alex, Kara and Maggie, though most paid no attention to James Olsen.
Funnily enough, when Kara got with Mon-El, the criticism from these fans wasn’t that James/Kara had better build-up and that writing decision was blatantly anti-black; but that Kara had better chemistry with Lena, a white woman who should have been played by a disabled actress and instead had her disability completely erased.
These fans don’t criticize the ableism in that choice, the racism in sidelining James or the issues with Maggie Sawyer being promoted as latina when she isn’t, yet praise Supergirl’s representation for (white, cis, thin, able bodied and neurotypical) sapphic women non-stop. The only criticism seems to be that Kara/Mon-El is happening instead of yet another white F/F ship.

Yet, though these and many other examples (Orphan Black, Jessica Jones, Agent Carter and OITNB are ones that comes to mind) show that Femslash Fandom™ is always willing to collectively flock to a new show as long as there are (white) sapphics in it, it doesn’t look like they (we?) apply the same to all media.

Continue reading